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Home Isn’t Kelly Sandoval

imageThey tell him he’ll be happy when he gets there. It was wrong, what was done to you, they say. We’re making it right. You’re going home.

The kind ones, who call him Mark, are pleased. They have a party, with foods from his planet. He chews the edge of a gray leaf so bitter it closes his throat. He’s used to coke and animal crackers. You’re going home, they say. No more soda, no more sweets. No more rooms with white walls and bright toys. No more needles, treadmills, tests. Home.
They won’t tell him what home is, only what it isn’t. He pictures a toyless, colorless, cokeless expanse. He pictures fields of bitter gray leaves growing beside silver pools. He tries to picture others like himself, but he is the only one he knows. He populates his imaginings with mirror-reversed copies of his own face. Pale blue fur and liquid black eyes.

At night, he wraps his arms around his chest and makes low choking noises as he tries to cry. He’s never quite gotten the trick of it.

The unkind ones, who call him The Subject, whisper about missed opportunities, invasions, and autopsies. They tell each other, we civilized The Subject, but who knows about the others. They’re probably savages. What if they eat their own kind?

He dreams of teeth.

His favorite among them, the woman who wears silver bracelets and paints his nails in rainbow colors, cries as she leads him to the shuttle.

“We thought it was best.” She makes a sound he knows isn’t laughter, because her eyes show no light. “That’s always the defense, isn’t it? But it’ll be better, there. You’ll be yourself.”

He wonders who he’s been so far.

The shuttle is a sleek, black cylinder that hums as they approach it. He clings to her side, twining his fingers in her black hair and hiding his face in her sleeve.
They climb the ramp together, and explore the emptiness inside.

“It’s okay,” she tells him. “It’s automated. We’ll put you to sleep, and it’ll drive you home.”

He has never been alone.

“Oh, Mark.” She untangles her hair from his fingers and takes both his hands. “It’s part of the treaty. No more contact.”

She leads him to a bed that yields like putty under the pressure of his touch, and straps him in.
“When you wake up,” she says, “You’ll be home.”
Above the bed is a poster covered in dense, looping swirls. If it’s art, it isn’t beautiful. If it’s language, he can’t read it. Either way, it feels like an accusation. He closes his eyes against it and sleeps.

When he wakes, there is no one. It takes him a long time, just to get out of the bed. He has to unbuckle the straps himself and his fingers are clumsy and weak. His nails show dark circles below the rainbow polish. He finds a strand of black hair, and wraps it around his wrist. He waits for instructions. The door to the shuttle stays closed.
Maybe they got rid of him on purpose. Maybe they don’t really want him back.
Maybe they eat their own kind.

He combs his fur as best he can, leaving piles of shed on the steel floor. He buttons his shirt, the nice one he wears when visitors come to look at him. He met a president, once.
The door panel flashes. He ignores it. Time passes. No one comes. There are no toys, no treadmills, no needles. No animal crackers, either.

The hunger forces him to act.

He presses his hand against the panel, and the door opens with a quiet whir. A ramp extends to the ground.

This, he tells himself, is home.

Home is a wide expanse of green glass with low black buildings in the distance and air smells like grapefruit juice. It is five beings, who are not his mirror-reverse selves. Their fur comes in silver, in brown, in the bright pink of his favorite keeper’s flower dresses. They speak, but the words are static, meaningless. Their teeth, like his, are very sharp.

He cringes back into the ship and presses the door panel. The door stays open.

“Child,” says the silver one, in a throaty, elongated version of his keepers’ speech. “Be not to fear, child. Come.”

Obedience is the first lesson he was ever taught. He shuffles down the ramp, his head low.
“They hurt you?” it asks.

He doesn’t know the answer. He shakes his head.

“You fear,” it says. “Wait. Fear goes.”

“Is this home?” he asks.

“Home is time,” it says. “Home comes.”

Fear goes. Home comes. He wonders if it’s true. He’s used to being lied to.

“Who are you?” It isn’t quite the question he wants to ask. He knows a little about families. Enough to want one.

It pauses. When it speaks again, the words are clearer, more rehearsed. “I am the one who waited.”

“I don’t belong here,” he says.

It takes his hand. “That too, comes.”


Kelly Sandoval lives with her fiance in beautiful Seattle, Washington. In 2013, she attended the Clarion West Writer Workshop. Her fiction has appeared in Esopus Magazine and Daily Science Fiction. You can find her on twitter as @kellymsandoval.

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Kelly Sandoval

Kelly Sandoval

Kelly Sandoval lives in Seattle, where the weather is always happy to make staying in and writing seem like a good idea. She shares her home with her understanding husband, chaos tornado toddler, and increasingly irate cat. Her interactive novel, Runt of the Litter is available from Choice of Games. Find her on twitter @kellymsandoval or visit her website at

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  1. MereMorckel
    June 26, 2014 @ 3:40 pm

    Lovely perspective – I’d love to see a longer piece with his whole story


  2. Augustina Lav
    June 25, 2014 @ 5:18 pm

    BrianKunkle Precisely! Just like “The Illustrated Man”…


  3. Moose
    June 15, 2014 @ 1:55 am

    Wow, just beautiful and moving. Excellent piece!


  4. BrianKunkle
    June 9, 2014 @ 2:37 pm

    Reminds me very much of Ray Bradbury. Love it


  5. KarenDent
    June 4, 2014 @ 8:22 pm

    liked this very much. So sad but with hope for his future. Excellent writing.


  6. Edward Beach
    June 2, 2014 @ 6:34 pm

    This had a really nice pace to it. I’m going to say one thing (and this is only because I like feedback myself so feel free to tell me to shove it) but when you underplay your dialogue, like with the five alien dudes, it can feel like we’re missing out on character depth and over-focusing on gimmicky speech effects.
    A really good example of a writer getting around this is David Galef’s ‘My Date With Neanderthal Woman’. He uses next to zero dialogue but you get a real sense of character through the whole piece. Anyway, I like your story too. Nothing about it felt either laboured or rushed, the narrative voice kept an even keel. It was nice and easy to read. Top stuff!


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